life at 7

Ok... worked till like 9 change last night, and was dealing with a broken car till two something past midnight... and now back to the JQFS... greeting people, sometimes i wonder does super enthusiastic greeting and pep talk work... i mean what if i was actuallly making people's day better... its such a wonderful feeling to make a difference... i love to see people smile and laugh... i wanna do tht all the time... like bob market said don't worry about a thing, every loittle thing's gonna be alright... today morning i felt something i haven't in a while... the chilly warm wind Nd the soft sun.... they are such an awesome thing..., people who wake up every morning wouldn't know about it.... i woke up before seven AM after a real long time and man its beautiful... grass seemed greener, sun seemed softer, wind was cooler, most people smiling and walking their dogs... a new experience for me....
Mornings man, have become exotic to me now, am like OOH morningsss..., a decade ago it'd wake up by now and be peddeling my way to school... getting the bottom of my pant really dirty each and every day.... good old days... i have realized how time changes everything.... nothing is spared... no one is spared... but i gues it also amiss you wiser, more patient and more composed....
Wonder what happened to all the innocence and purity though, i guess that is the cost we paid to get wiser....

Ok i have the dark side now... have people ever noticed the perks in the darker side... they are so tempting.... i am not saying am into the light now and stuff but am in the grey's... i guess most of us are.... i have made some decisions and did some actions which have proved their worth to me now... long pending decisions, and long dude actions.... i guess they served their purpose... am sure it was high time.... had to be...
i dont say that its always important to please your own appetite but how long does one bend down and kiss ass.... i guess people love to commit the same mistaked over and over again... i exactly mean what i say... they dont fukin know when to stop and when to change their fuckin ways.... i have realized i have very boldly used the f-word a couple of times but i dont effin care...i have my own ways of life, my own priorities and stuff... i decide who is how important to me and who can tel me what to do or what not to do.... i am the creator of my world... my world has to be exactly how i want.... coz if pretend there to fit in somewhere else there is no point.... we're all criminals... we murder our thoughts and opinions and self respect to FIT IN.....
dont give a crap about the world if ur different man.... mould it the way you want it... The only way out and only way infact is to be yourself.... That gives you less to blame on others... that way you are responsible for your own actions and in exchange you are actually keeping others happy too....
Two birds in one shot.......
Guys plz plz plz...try not giving a f@#$ :D
thats the way \m/

what did we want?

People are programmed in their heads, to expect something... It is like a ghost code... a daemon process... its inevitable... no matter how random things may appear, someone involved somewhere at some point has to be waiting for something.... expectations need not be from just a person... it could be from anything... Even God for that matter.... You perform rituals and pooja's and so on and expect that God will answer to your prayers... Well friends...reality check.... i guess one cant bribe God... if he was corruptible he wouldn't have been God... Yielding is very easy but am sure God wouldn't.... anyway back to expectations...
So WHAT DID WE WANT.... is my question.... we came up with nuclear energy but what did we want the, the 436 nuclear power plants or 23000 nuclear weapons...
So far its only been about the world, lets take this topic to a more personal level..
So what did we expect when we set on this journey, journey over here i mean, the journey you have embarked, or mine or anyone else... All of us are on some journey... We all started on one road and have been trying all exits or parallel routes or faster routes.... Sometimes when we don't get what we wanted we tend to take escape routes... we feel the need to deviate from that particular 'need'....
We all have been warned about all the hurdles... we all have thought over this a zillion times but have consciously taken up this journey.. I think i exactly knew what was gonna happen by the end of my journey, and i guess i was right... i knew nothing would turn out the way i had imagined and i am right....
I have been lost, burnt, hurt, loved, liked, appreciated, discriminated, ignored and what not... but i guess the only thing that keeps me going is the same thought...
"WHAT DID WE WANT??"